So, I felt better when I did research for several weeks and found out that even if I had to go on dialysis I could still live a long and complete life. The daily and overnight dialysis really perked me up. My husband at the time was treating me like a queen. Being so loving, holding me in his arms at night for the first time since before I got pregnant with my 13 yo son. His mom who had not talked to me for well over a year was suddenly my friend again. Well, I tell him I have this RAS going on. He asks me if it means no dialysis. i tell him probably not. I hope not. Well, he has turned into his usual cruel self again. I have been going through a grief cycle due to all this hitting me at once (yeah like having stage 2 hypertension for over 8 weeks and never leaving my room and just everything...its all been horrible) and so I have been staying up a lot at night because I dont like being around a lot of people during the day. The sun and the birds bother me too. Well, he just yells at me tonight before he went to bed, "dont stay up late tonight so you can take your son to school tomorrow". I have been up with those boys every single morning since they were pre-k kids. That so hurt.
So heres the question, who dies sooner---dialysis person or renal artery stenosis person? Because obviously my husband thought I was a goner when he thought I was going to have to have dialysis and now that I just have plain ole artereosclerosis and hypertension he doesnt care anymore. I see why people dont have kids. If I didnt have kids I would be long gone a long time ago.